[split] "The dark attacks from the shadow ..."

[Jade]

I think a lot of people end up depressed; but I can't say if you specifically were extremely depressed in the past. Do you feel like you have / have had no self worth?

IMO, you should be what you want to be, not what you think you should be.

I'm in the middle of "The Nature of Personal Reality" (Seth) and it rang true when he specifically talks about depression being equated with the feeling of powerlessness, of not being able to change your reality/consciousness and being at the mercy of events outside of you.

Of course, what Seth teaches is that reality is the product of your conscious and unconscious beliefs, so it's exactly the opposite - we aren't at the mercy of events outside of us, we are at the mercy of ourselves.

I usually associate feelings of depression and low self-worth with an indigo blockage. It's like when plenum talked about how sometimes the colors are extra ON, and then they turn back off.

I think the typical pattern is that we get unblocked for a while, everything is gravy, and then we get an "echo" of the old reality that we don't want to be in, which causes us to doubt ourselves again, which leads to the indigo ray being blocked again. OR, we begin to see reality reflect our changes in consciousness, and that can get frightening, all the responsibility! So we shut it back down. This is where Tanner's quote is apt.

The next center is the pineal or indigo-ray center. Those blocked in this center may experience a lessening of the influx of intelligent energy due to manifestations which appear as unworthiness. This is that of which you spoke. As you can see, this is but one of many distortions due to the several points of energy influx into the mind/body/spirit complex. The indigo-ray balancing is quite central to the type of work which revolves about the spirit complex, which has its influx then into the transformation or transmutation of third density to fourth density, it being the energy center receiving the least distorted outpourings of love/light from intelligent energy and having also the potential for the key to the gateway of intelligent infinity.

The new material is this: once the green ray has been achieved, the ability of the entity to enter blue ray is immediate and is only awaiting the efforts of the individual. The indigo ray is opened only through considerable discipline and practice largely having to do with acceptance of self, not only as the polarized and balanced self but as the Creator, as an entity of infinite worth.

We are all worthy. We are all the Creator. We just let our thoughts get in the way of experiencing that all the time.