[split] "The dark attacks from the shadow ..."

[Minyatur]

In retrospect, the greatest thing learned from all of that was that Polarity does not change anything around me, only Myself.

This is extremely untrue, and by extremely I mean it's something one needs to be conscious of. Polarized thoughts have enormous creative power, this may not be reflected in immediate space/time but you are injecting each of them in time/space. So whatever thoughts you have is quite fine and well, but it is in a way your responsibility to be conscious of your thoughts and the creative power they hold as to not be unconscious of what you're doing. As a simple example, you can quite easily bless or curse yourself just as others with simple polarized thoughts.

You are Co-Creator of this reality, think not of yourself as any less.

I highly do not resonate with this lol

I am ALL things.   How can you say what I am and am not?

This is the essence of ALL things as ALL things are Co-Creator.

If you wish to not consider your thoughts as having any creative power that is fine, but I tell you that you are lying to yourself and injecting thought forms into the time/space of this reality. Your thoughts have ripples, and the more charged they are the truer this is.

To add to this, it is like when you said you did not know how to heal and others have tried to tell you it is an ability you already have.

You not being aware of it or dismissing it does not negate it from the essence of your being. Through resonance thoughts are creative, through polarity/being charged (however you want to state it) they hold power.