Embracing/Accepting Murder Fantasies and The Absence of the Value of Life in Society

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

Q'uo: You have been a magician each time that you have faced a situation in life and made a conscious choice to respond to catalyst that is offered you in a way which was not automatic in your responsive system. When you have chosen a higher path, when you have chosen a soft word instead of a harsh one, a kind action instead of a rude one, or an honest if hard answer instead of a hypocritical though easy one, you have acted in a magical way, choosing to lift your consciousness to a higher path.

In the light of this Quote, it reminded me of mentioning how this works both ways.

I have, as of late, showcased to those living with me the 'darkest' energy I can mirror to them that I pick up from them.  Most typically, this involves insult and cruelty to things we agree upon, are bad or annoying.

The result of this downright dark honesty, they have noticed it in themselves much more suddenly.  My mom has begun standing up to her Employer (Chase Bank) at least in the small ways she can without losing her job.  My roommate has decided she does not want to be like me, and has begun taking the 'higher' road.

I must say, my intent to teach as I learn has begun helping others learn to see the darkness in themselves, and to begin making their choice.

Now...The only real problem is...  Having had to do this for months, I'm now conditioned to naturally respond by mirroring the perceived energy.  This was apparent when I blew my top at Anagogy a few days ago.

So.  This is making it a bit difficult to be approachable otherwise.  I need to begin re-conditioning myself back to a more neutral then positive output...

Thank you for reminding me of this, I meant to include it in the OP since it is veeeery curious to note, I am devoid of murder fantasies directed toward my friends or family, excluding my extremely cruel ass of a half-brother.