02-05-2016, 11:05 AM
I think that's interesting that you've seen that - and it's also interesting that you've watched others around you then, take the "positive" interpretation of their catalyst you gave them, instead of feeding you back the negative energies in a loop, they broke free of their limiting thoughts. So I'd say your experiment to be service to others while being service to self worked. 
And, it's also proof that from bad behaviors can come good outcomes. The choice now being that you want to start feeding yourself more positive experiences instead of negative - which takes a lot willpower, but I think you're finding it. It's not hard, it just takes that initial intention, and thrust of desire. And the good news is that it builds on itself. Honestly, the only reason I'm "dogmatic" about polarity is because of how the Experience of the Mind works: the more we choose the positive interpretation of catalyst, the more we receive catalyst that can be interpreted in a positive manner. I mean, ultimately it's about having a more fulfilling and joyful experience in our incarnations, yeah? Just that darn human masochism making us enjoy pain so much....
And, it's also proof that from bad behaviors can come good outcomes. The choice now being that you want to start feeding yourself more positive experiences instead of negative - which takes a lot willpower, but I think you're finding it. It's not hard, it just takes that initial intention, and thrust of desire. And the good news is that it builds on itself. Honestly, the only reason I'm "dogmatic" about polarity is because of how the Experience of the Mind works: the more we choose the positive interpretation of catalyst, the more we receive catalyst that can be interpreted in a positive manner. I mean, ultimately it's about having a more fulfilling and joyful experience in our incarnations, yeah? Just that darn human masochism making us enjoy pain so much....