The Vibratory Formulae

[Aion]

I've thought about using Black Magic for positive outcome and White Magic for negative outcome just to see how it plays out with reality.
I'm also curious of the negative path but not past intentionally harming others, more for manipulating itself for my own ends, which typically could be said to be STO oriented in intention.

Maybe if Reality made more sense to me, I wouldn't be going about things these ways like a kid in a chemisty (alchemistry?) lab trying out mixture A with mixture G knowing doing that might be volatile.

But, hey, learning, and eternity.  I don't know.  And that is by design.  I'll see where I take myself, and eventually once I get a full grasp on it all...  I'll begin leading myself again instead of letting myself stumble from Moment to Moment using Mixture A and Mixture G to try and figure out how to get to Substance T.

Or however it all goes, I really do not know, and the annoying nature of this place does tend to have me looking both directions at the same time, however that might be possible.

Sounds like it's all very complicated in your mind. Also sounds like you might try to use fire to water plants.