Info request on negative adept

[Rolci]

You made a distinction between a sleeping person acting unconsciously based on programming and another using acts of will to override. While I understand that, I never actually meant my question like that. I was starting from the assumption that one is already conscious of self and all its actions, as in "Billy knows exactly what upsets him, and when he next time faces the catalyst, he knows exactly what that will make him feel and act like, and he doesn't see why he shouldn't accept himself as he knows all is well and perfect, and doesn't see a reason why he should pretend he doesn't feel the way he feels, and CHOOSES to act as normal (which may SEEM to the external observer as unconscious programming), while he COULD choose to act different and be (or rather ACT) nice, leaving him with the feeling that he wasn't truthful to himself as well as to the other person." Also that catalyst that he provides the other person by acting out the upsetness sure has a purpose. If that catalyst would not be appropriate for that person, s/he wouldn't even be in that situation, or would not "receive" the catalyst as such, which Billy could no way help but to VERY soon notice, which usually makes, funnily enough, one not act the same way again. If I can't push her buttons with this, why waste my time next time around? I think the mirroring effect is vastly useful in teaching, while an ungegnuine act does... I forget what it does. Could create world peace at last I guess, but I personally wouldn't enjoy living in a fake smile world devoid of useful catalyst and mirrors. Maybe something's wrong with me?