Info request on negative adept

[Rolci]

42.9 Questioner: What is the difference in terms of energy center activation between a person who represses emotionally charged responses to emotionally charged situations and the person who is balanced and, therefore, truly unswayed by emotionally charged situations?

Ra: I am Ra. This query contains an incorrect assumption. To the truly balanced entity no situation would be emotionally charged. With this understood, we may say the following: The repression of emotions depolarizes the entity insofar as it then chooses not to use the catalytic action of the space/time present in a spontaneous manner, thus dimming the energy centers. There is, however, some polarization towards positive if the cause of this repression is consideration for other-selves. The entity which has worked long enough with the catalyst to be able to feel the catalyst but not find it necessary to express reactions is not yet balanced but suffers no depolarization due to the transparency of its experiential continuum. Thus the gradual increase in the ability to observe one’s reactions and to know the self will bring the self ever closer to a true balance. Patience is requested and suggested, for the catalyst is intense upon your plane and its use must be appreciated over a period of consistent learn/teaching.

I think these days more than ever, these words are relevant to a LOT of people, with such a high ratio of self-aware individuals. This reply spoke to me, and also confirmed again how pure the info is (to pick up that assumption so well), and also that I need to re-read. I think I will do that next, while I wait for CU5 to hit piratebay.

I must admit, Ra's reply is a bit unclear to me. So ok, I'm missing out on catalytic action, I was clear on that and what it meant. Not sure how the dimming centers are supposed to manifest as. Then they say the repression polarizes. So then the depol and pol cancel each other out or what? And what does "transparency of experiential continuum" mean? So then with patience, repression leads to balance in the end. So it's ok then? I mean, if you express all your reactions and "use catalyst" (hooray) you divorce in no time, how responsible is that towards the kids?? But then, if one does what you've been saying, "fake a smile", then how is that different from repression? Both are non-expression and non-use of precious intense catalyst, no?