Red ray blockage?

[fiatlux0]

So I'd like to revive this post. I am currently, and have experienced for the past year, a significant red ray blockage, exactly as Q'uo said, "a level of depression that argues against life and the joy of life, and difficulties with sexuality."

Has anyone revived their red ray? I'm asking for help. I meditate at least an hour every day, sometimes three hours a day. I have been off work for a couple months now, doing nothing, resting I would call it. I just don't know how to get my red ray fired up again.... I am weak, I tire of breathing even.

NO I am not suicidal, I just want to love life again, but how?

I understand how you feel and have recently resigned from my job, which is to some extent due to unpleasant red ray blockage experience at workplace. So, I empathise with your situation.

We are all beings of distortions, what has been helpful to me is to identify the fear and anger factors in my life that distort my perception away from joy and love. I try to accept and forgive myself every time the fear or anger crop up in my mind, then consciously find the joy and love at that particular moment.

And then there is also a need to balance between being and doing.

I have been contemplating/meditating in the past few months on my blockages, and gaining understanding of my self's nature along the way, then I have come to a stage where I feel I need to put the understanding into practice in my daily experience more and more, leading to my resignation.

Now, I am contemplating at options for my next step, prayerfully watching out for those that will help me further express the joy and love.

I apologize if the above is too general as my perception is that as each person's life experience is unique, hence the specific lessons of forgiving fear/anger and finding joy/love are unique as well.

I wish you peace, joy and love in your continuing journey of seeking the deeper path.