Red ray blockage?

[anagogy]

So I'd like to revive this post. I am currently, and have experienced for the past year, a significant red ray blockage, exactly as Q'uo said, "a level of depression that argues against life and the joy of life, and difficulties with sexuality."

Has anyone revived their red ray? I'm asking for help. I meditate at least an hour every day, sometimes three hours a day. I have been off work for a couple months now, doing nothing, resting I would call it. I just don't know how to get my red ray fired up again.... I am weak, I tire of breathing even.

NO I am not suicidal, I just want to love life again, but how?

I think we all deal with this from time to time Peregrinus.  Vital energy depletion can be rough.

The best advice I can give you for reigniting your red ray is to simply find something every day to "savor".  Something that tantalizes your senses and imagination.  Really enjoy it.  It could be anything from a hot meal, a beautiful image, a tactile sensation, a song etc.  Anything.  But find something you can genuinely appreciate and savor.  It will help, trust me.

Secondly, start doing some kind of cardio exercise for 20 minutes a day, minimum.  I like to spend a lot of time hiking.  Remember, "The flow of power, just as the flow of love or wisdom, is enabled not by the chary conserver of its use but by the constant user."

The same is true for restoring vital energies.  Everything is a muscle that can be strengthened with regular use.

Lastly, don't put too much pressure on yourself.  We are human, and it is okay to be human, and have human flaws.  Forgive yourself.