Greetings loved ones

[Meerie]

Of course I do that, but somehow I feel disconnected right now, as I said. I feel like stuck in a waiting loop at the moment.
I should add that my "guru" was some kind of soulmate... we both felt that connection and also love while we were in touch. I guess it was that love towards him which also helped me to feel that loving feeling in general.
But I know that I need to rely on myself and feel that love inside myself instead of waiting for someone outside myself to provide me with love.