Under attack... in desperate need of help...

[Verum Occultum]

I think that the only way anyone can hurt you is by you believing it into existence. "They" use your beliefs as a medium to travel into your agreed subjective-objective reality. When you work hard and intensely on changing your beliefs on a subconscious level, your physical senses will simply ignore the signals of darkness and "they" can not 'get through' to your reality anymore. How you define and interpret reality is how you create it, literally.

I believe it is good to look with wisdom if there is inner light in the people around you. It seems to me that if you are in a deep psychological state of being, like you say with different wording, you are then affected by various vibrations from others that you take and incorporate into yourself and your definitions about reality. Although you say you want to be alone, I can only recommend a communion of those who wish you the best. That can help you very well if you allow it to, because the mere presence of such entities create a loving atmosphere where the probability of attack is lessened, and it would also gift an opportunity for them to assist you. Nature is your friend, breathing life here and there. Surely, if you ask deeply from your heart, the Creator shall give you what you need. Let that which you ask for be a part of the Law.