Under attack... in desperate need of help...

[Minyatur]

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I don't view everyone as worth loving. I think love has its place, but I'm not a positive person the way you seem to be.

Well if you read my signature, I believe it is the fate of each to come to love all others, they are but mirrors unto what you are afterall. I have found within my soul to see all of this creation as love and light although I don't think it is an inherent perspective I'd exect everyone to find within themselves as easily as I did. Depends on where you are at in your path.

To me it seems that what can keep one from loving others is but unresolved portions of the self that have yet to be distilled and also a simple lack of understanding of them. Same thing applies to a lack of love of self.

I also don't view preincarnative stuff the same way that some here do. In one sense, I desired what is happening because it is happening, but I don't view reincarnation the same way that some do... I think that reincarnation is more like, what you are thinking of at the moment of death becomes your new life, along with the patterns that you've nurtured during this one.

What about a degree of awareness which is not limited to 3D incarnational cycles. You speak of demons and from your descriptions they seem not limited to such cycles. Do you believe yourself to have reached planes beyond 3D reincarnation?

In this context, then you would have made the choice to enter the reincarnation cycle you are part of with a certain intent in doing so.

"Freeing" myself of hatred doesn't seem like "healing" to me. Being me seems like healing.

Well the Ra material teaches healing through acceptance of self. That nothing is overcome and that that which is not needed falls away.

So to me this means that by letting yourself experience your hatred and dive into it, will bring yourself to the roots which distort the inherent undistorted love that passes through yourself into hatred. Then by working with the roots, with time you can only come to forgive the right things and untangle the nodes within yourself.

I call it freeing because trust me my friend, as much as I find hatred a pure and most beautiful form of love, it is quite the heavy thing to dwell in.