10-04-2010, 01:37 PM
(10-04-2010, 02:55 AM)Meerie Wrote: However I also started misusing my new found freedom and was very rude especially to guys, adopting an exaggerated feminist attitude. No doubt due to my negative experiences with men in general and also with my guru.
expression of truth directly, calling crap by its name, identifying situations in brutal honesty, disturbs a lot of people. moreover, you cannot take on all the imbalances and untruthfulness on this planet by yourself.
you need to balance your newfound blue ray with some green ray it seems. normal course of things, a phase.
Quote:Now I feel like all this seems like a dream and I am more in a state like before, getting depressed and subdued. I feel disconnected again and am not feeling love like before.
Thank you for reading all this,
I would love to get some feedback from you, this seems to be a nice and welcoming forum,
M
fall back is natural after any kind of initiation, even ordinary meditations, vacations, good times. the energy being transferred to you, or the connection probably wore out. this is normal too.
you need to use your own energy now, as much as you can and best as you can, and only draw from outer sources (other than yourself) when things go over your head or your energy is not enough.
of course, overextending oneself, engaging in too much and then expecting outside aid is rather irresponsible.