10-06-2010, 01:49 AM
Hello Meeri!
Thankyou for opening up! It's always a relief to meet pple with similar experiences
only that the separation from an unethical "Guru" and "The-rapist" had far more horrible consequences for me that i've mentioned elsewhere on the forum. At the moment i'm experiencing feelings of abandonment from another "authority" and i'm trying to figure out why this is happening to me just now.
Maybe it's a step to to become "selfreliant" in ones spiritual development, maybe it's a "negative greeting" that Carla speaks about in "Living the Law of One"; the more you shine your light the more you cast a shadow and attract negativity trying to turn out your light. That negativity can come both from outside yourself and from your own unprocessed issues.
Also it may be a reflection of inner fear of speaking one's truth since horrible things happened before when one did. The thing is that wonderful experiences are abundant in my life also at the moment, but they are mixed with feelings of disconnection and abandonment.
I think I'm the one you refer to regarding mercury retrograde, astrology has been a big interest in my life but has taken on a more balanced level as i discovered Divinecosmos, this forum and The Law of One.
I actually have rather difficult transits coming; Saturn conjuncting Neptune and squaring both Venus and the Nodes which mean i will meet the energies of "The dark night of the soul" to a higher or lesser degree both in myself and in those around me, which is already happening.
Since i've been through this before i think i can handle it better this time. These energies can also at best mean "To Structure your ideals and realize your dreams" and "to put healthy boundaries in relationships".
Again Welcome
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Thankyou for opening up! It's always a relief to meet pple with similar experiences
only that the separation from an unethical "Guru" and "The-rapist" had far more horrible consequences for me that i've mentioned elsewhere on the forum. At the moment i'm experiencing feelings of abandonment from another "authority" and i'm trying to figure out why this is happening to me just now.Maybe it's a step to to become "selfreliant" in ones spiritual development, maybe it's a "negative greeting" that Carla speaks about in "Living the Law of One"; the more you shine your light the more you cast a shadow and attract negativity trying to turn out your light. That negativity can come both from outside yourself and from your own unprocessed issues.
Also it may be a reflection of inner fear of speaking one's truth since horrible things happened before when one did. The thing is that wonderful experiences are abundant in my life also at the moment, but they are mixed with feelings of disconnection and abandonment.
I think I'm the one you refer to regarding mercury retrograde, astrology has been a big interest in my life but has taken on a more balanced level as i discovered Divinecosmos, this forum and The Law of One.
I actually have rather difficult transits coming; Saturn conjuncting Neptune and squaring both Venus and the Nodes which mean i will meet the energies of "The dark night of the soul" to a higher or lesser degree both in myself and in those around me, which is already happening.
Since i've been through this before i think i can handle it better this time. These energies can also at best mean "To Structure your ideals and realize your dreams" and "to put healthy boundaries in relationships".
Again Welcome
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