Minya Wrote:I did experience falling in love to the point of disregarding myself when it was needed, but this was programmed within my veil and once I broke this illusion I felt angry about it for a time, because as much as it allowed beautiful sides of myself to be experienced, it was also not fully truthful of what I am. Just a temporary moment that had it's uses and since then I did more of awakening to how love is known to my soul than how I can experience it blinded within a set of illusions.
Why do you feel it was "programmed into your veil" and why would you be angry about it? It doesn't help if you refer to things as "just illusions", when the illusion is our reality. We all lose ourselves in relationships, especially if we start disregarding ourselves for the sake of the other, but this is the problem with this discussion having morphed into a literal discussion with comparisons to ex relationship disasters and how we relate to people in our lives, because the Creator that you are seeking and courting isn't going to end up in "it was also not fully truthful of what I am" and "it had its uses" and "since then I did more of awakening to how love is known to my soul" and "being blinded within illusion", quite the contrary to all these things you described...