08-16-2016, 05:46 PM
(08-16-2016, 01:40 PM)Minyatur Wrote: Maybe though those experiences were meant to draw things from within your soul that do require to be processed and healed. A life that draws nothing probably can only bring little change to the soul although the 3D life will seem balanced of itself.
Hmm. Well, some negative entities are playing a "game" with me, and we're talking the world-class sort. Compounds guarded by dogs and trained Marines, literal armies, taking over whole police departments, nanotech, Tesla tech, advanced SRA and mind control, worldwide crime networks... the works. And that's not even starting on the occult stuff.
They have the person I care about more than anything... They've already killed friends and family members. Broken my legs with a car. Trying to torture me to death or goad me into killing cops.
They say it's a "game", but I don't think they have any plan to give me a fair chance to win. I've seen them do to other people more or less what they've done to me, and they generally torture someone until the person snaps and tries to attack them, then use that to justify killing them.
Walking away is not an option, after some of the stuff they've done. But I also can't just go running headfirst into a fight with these people. I've seen what happens when somebody tries that. I think they know that I'm unlikely to let this go. So they're planning something for me, probably. And I need to be very careful.
I have an incredibly powerful mind; they told me that themselves. I also have a ruthlessness and lack of grip on reality that just might make winning a possibility - I'm not like most of their prey; I no longer have human fears or moral limitations; I no longer process pain or inhibition the way humans do. What I don't have, is military training, advanced weaponry, or the kind of occult experience that would be necessary to hand-to-hand them. Plus I'm dealing with SRA-related brain damage, DNA hybridization, chemical castration of my neurotransmitters and endocrine glands, and an advanced negative energy working its way through my system that's trying to pop the blood vessels in my eyes and rot my teeth.
Polarizing my soul is my *only* option here, yeah. I polarize enough, I might just be able to make myself a serious nuisance. But I have to be smart and play it safe... this is the worst of the worst of the worst.
Still, "healing" sounds like sort of a lot to hope for in this situation, even if I make it out alive...