my mental illness and medication are ruining my life

[Jade]

DO NOT STOP TAKING YOUR MEDICATION!

At least not for now (grrrrrr Isis! )

i said "i think" he/she should quit them if he/she thinks he/she can manage alright w/o...no need for grring at me. i didn't order him/her to do anything.

Well, to be fair, I think he was grrring from his experience of having done that putting him in the position to get attacked by an axe!


INM, it was very brave of you to reach out for help. I wish I had more to offer than just words. The Ra material is about self healing, and while being without medication is an obtainable goal to have, the healing lessons in the LOO are also about gradual, sequential transformations that build upon each other. I think it might be better to seek a medication adjustment, first - exhaust your ability to see other doctors. Find one who understands that you don't want to be a zombie, and you want to get better. Seroquel is hardly a modern drug.

One small thing I do that takes 20 minutes out of my day is that I meditate and set my intentions every morning. I burn some sage/incense, and set my intentions to harmonize with my environment and heal myself (micro and macrocosm "self"), ask for help from my guides, etc. Then I meditate. Sometimes it's a great meditation, most of the time it's so-so, but the daily ritual builds upon itself into something powerful. Ask and you shall receive. We just ask for lots of messed up stuff without realizing it.