emotionally blocked.

[BlatzAdict]

While I've benefited a bit from watching her videos, and recognize that my cynicism is at play here, I do find the production values of the video really, really, REALLY off-putting.  I don't like my spirituality to be too tidy and shiny.  I will freely admit that I have a kneejerk distrust of feeling like I'm being marketed to.  I have this exact problem where I work, where there's so much advertising and marketing to employees, little programs and posters that are supposed to keep us engaged and happy.  I just want to do the work, in both instances, and I suppose I feel like when people come across too slick there's something they're hiding.

I fully admit that this is a distortion of mine, and I'll give the video a second look.

i really like this talk which also deals with the same themes.