The Dream Thread

[OpalE]

then in the final portion something interesting happened that i don't recall ever happening before. i was still as lucid as could be & my body left me. i don't recall it happening but suddenly i wasn't in a body. i started seeing things happening as if i was watching a movie...but the "screen" had no boarder. & i watched things happening like this for what i'm sure was hours until i finally woke up.

I know this screen.  I don't know what this is, exactly, but the first time it happened to me it felt like some sort of defense mechanism ... like the reality of the dream was too intense for me to handle, so i just "switched" to a more distant view to watch it w/o experiencing it so directly.

Since then it's very common, and i "jump into and out of" the screen often.  Sometimes it feels like window shopping before a purchase ... like flipping through a catalogue before choosing which vacation to go on.

It feels a lot like some of the experiences i think of as "3rd eye visions" while awake, come to think of it.  Maybe a connection to "the silver screen" (before it meant movies)?

Very rarely do i have what i understand to be lucid dreams, but they are usually sort of ... ?half-lucid.  I'm present, aware, and making choices, but i don't seem to bother defining what's happening in relation to my waking life.

Something i noticed fairly recently:  I don't usually have an actual form in my dreams.  I'm like a mobile point of perception.  I can still interact with the environment and communicate, but i'm not using limbs or lips or such to do it.  Often, i'll just observe silently from inside, apparently undetected.  I think this allows me to also travel to settings where personal forms make no sense or ... ?don't apply? without having to break the ... ?continuation of self?  Those places make for the strangest dreams/experiences.  When i remember those, they don't 'translate' into waking terms at all.

Occasionally a form will seem to "spontaneously manifest" or vanish for specific dreams or portions of dreams.  

I have no idea how long this no-form thing has been the case, but reading through my old journals it seems to have been a while.