10-11-2016, 11:04 PM
(10-11-2016, 10:40 PM)Mahakali Wrote: I'm not a huge fan of forgiveness. The more I hate someone, the more I hurt them. Maybe that's somewhat negative. But as long as I can think and feel hatred, I attach them to my pain. And as long as I have my pain, I will think and feel hatred.
I think that, if I really, really want to, I could hurt them with just my mind. The amount of pain and anguish inside of me isn't something that most people following the negative path would understand or be able to notice at first glance. There's more than enough to share with people who want to be mean to me. They'll regret it, if I want them to.
That said, I'd probably rather move on... but it's hard... I really just want my mind, body, and soul to be fixed... attuned to the proper vibrations that could make me happier... but I'm not sure exactly how to go about it.
I love your honesty. I'm sorry you carry all that with you. Maybe just start with one person to forgive?
Yourself, anyone really, forgiveness really benefits you more than them. Carrying all those wounds is a big job. Put one or two down you might find your mind/body/soul does feel better.
We are near polar opposites I forgive maybe to easily, I see the reason for people's carelessness/meanness even if they don't. It doesn't make it good behaviour but I cannot hold it against them because I understand to some degree everyone's struggle. On the plus side I don't have wounds to carry except from loss, on the down side if I'd made people be aware of their "meanness" or inconsiderate behaviour maybe I would have been a better mirror for them.
Either way thank you for sharing your perspective.