Red ray blockage?

[ricdaw]

I have been off work for a couple months now, doing nothing, resting I would call it. I just don't know how to get my red ray fired up again.... I am weak, I tire of breathing even.

Let me offer my experience and maybe some of it will help.

When I quit my job of 15 years, it was also a resignation from my profession.  And even though the major motivation for the separation was the desire to study metaphysics and to explore Why We Are Really Here, I found myself listless and tired too.

Imagine my surprise, while at a Monroe Institute program, during the free early morning yoga session (I had never done yoga) I was overcome by an emotional response to a particular yoga pose.  The instructor asked us to place a yoga block (cork, 3x4x8ish) under our shoulder blades using the medium face (low face is laying flat, high face is standing up 8 inches tall, medium face is on its side) and then to let your arms relax.  Essentially, you are bent over the thing backwards.  The instructor called it a "heart opening" pose.

I burst into tears.

And I couldn't stop.

I didn't even know WHY I was crying because I was not sad.  It was surreal.  I was heaving and sobbing with no known cause, like my body was not my own.  Where was this stuff coming from?

Well, in the remaining progress of the program, I learned intuitively that I was in mourning.  Mourning for my lost job.  Mourning for my daily purpose.  Mourning for my abandoned sense of self worth from my profession.  And all of that unprocessed mourning, having skipped my intellect, was being processed instead by my body.

I returned home, not whole, but on the road to energetic recovery.  It took more time, but I eventually got my mojo back.

Your comment on having difficulty breathing is a classic symptom of grief.  So let me redirect your focus from Red Ray to unprocessed emotions instead.  Yoga is an amazing way to get the body to process emotions.  I highly recommend it.  If you have never taken a class, find an introductory course that does Hatha yoga (pose holding in a normal temperature environment).  It is the one that will help you express stuck emotions, if those happen to be affecting you like they did me. 

I also suggest downloading the on-line free tutorial for EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) where you tap on various acupressure points with your fingers, in a certain order, with an affirmation.  It is amazing for releasing stuck energies and revitalizing you from hidden unprocessed emotional issues.

Lastly, breath is the key.  Sadness is held in the lungs.  Go online and find the Ted talk by Max Strom.  Follow his guidance for the simple exercise he puts the audience through.  If you feel any relief from it, then dig in deeper and find other on-line resources or a breathwork practitioner near you.

Ok, not lastly.  There is also reiki.  (I am a reiki master.)  Find a practitioner and go for a session.  Share the theory that grief might be a cause . . .

You are not alone in experiencing what you are experiencing.  I've been there. 

I hope this is some comfort.

And contact me directly if you need clarification or other private advice.

--Rick