Suicide

[Glow]

Kaaron - perhaps you destroying parts of them was what was needed.
I just healed from a 36 year old wound because the love of my life finally broke me completely.
I'm greatful and look forward to better times including with him.

I'm sorry you are hurting so much, your humour on the other thread was so completely relatable I didn't see you were at this state. Things can change over night. They just did with me. I thought I was at the end last night but it was really the beginning. Thanks to someone who surely felt bad about destroying me.

I don't think there is sto or sts. The pain caused to me in acts of self service were exactly what I needed to heal. It's an illusion, a play, not the most pleasant one.

I can't tell you what to feel about your partner seeking enjoyment to escape except she hasn't left, maybe just needs help to lift her so she can keep trying to help you. We are one. We separate into pairs but truely we are interconnected and need more than just one other person.

Admin please feel free to delete this if it's deemed not helpful.
I know how kaaron feels, don't want him feeling alone but maybe I will say the wrong thing.