Beating psychotronic weapons

[Aion]

Well, I mean, just looking at your post here it seems obvious that you are where you are precisely because you want to be there. You are gleefully playing in the same fields you claim to want to be free from and fetishize the same control that is being pushed upon you. You're not stupid, you're quite sharp and it baffles me that you cannot see this. You yourself are obsessed with the very things you are experiencing and a complete unwillingness to shift your desires means there will be no adjacent changes in the external reality. You know exactly how it works, but you keep.hoping there is some way you can have your cake and eat it too.

By all means you can keep trying with what you're doing, but my understanding is that no changes occur in reality until changes occur within the self. From there, it is realizing you are slave to your own desires and deciding what to do about that.

And no, I am not suggesting that these things aren't real or that they are illusory or that there isn't some really nasty s*** out there, what I am suggesting is that you are experiencing that which is a function of your chosen emotion, mental and physical environment. You chose this, and so to go elsewhere, you must choose another way. You cannot leave the crossroads and stay in its cross. You must choose a way out, but so far it seems you choose a path that loops right back in to it. Circles endlessly forever. Time to break the chain or its just gonna keep going and going and going.

I guess the other alternative is to sink in to a deep victim mentality, but I don't think you're the type for that.

I used to be the type for that, but I don't see how it's gonna help.

What do you mean by "a different way"? I can't control my fetishes. But, like I said, my goal is to be alone, not to get closer to others in any particular fashion. Besides, there are plenty of law-abiding ways to engage in mind control play and BDSM and other somewhat negatively oriented sexuality, with willing participants. And I might not even go for that... in theory, I'm a complete pervert, but in practice, I never take up anyone else's offer on sex.

What I really need is to understand how to activate and use the merkaba while removing the damaging distortions.

What kind of change are you referring to? To dedicate myself in total service to others? I don't feel comfortable with that. I want to fix myself first, and then I'll see about helping others. I'm not against it, but I am distrustful and paranoid, and I'll feel better about all that once I feel safe and empowered enough to take care of myself...

Or, if you're talking metaphysical or etheric changes, where should I start? I'm very confused about what exactly is going on with me. Meditation is probably the key, but if I'm going to walk through the walls of the prison instead of trying to find an external way out, how does that work?

Well I do not suggest a suppression of yourself or the removal of elements, that was not my intention but rather an approach towards balance. There are some thing I will disagree with you. You say you can't control your fetishes but I think that's more of an unwillingness to embrace a larger view of yourself. Why are you 'only' that way and that is how you 'have' to be? I'm not suggesting these things aren't part of you or even that they aren't your genuine desires but I ask, is that really all that you are? I, personally, don't believe that to be the case. I believe you have a lot more to offer yourself and you're only settling for the basest of potentials within yourself, the impulses instead of the true ideals.

So, I would suggest a rigorous practice of Ra's mental technique for balancing, matching every thought and impulse you have with its equal opposite. The thing is that the universe doesn't register how 'controlled' your desire may be, it gets a vibration feeds it back in a loop, so it's not having these desires that is the difficulty it is how polarized and charged they are.

Note the balancing techniques here, I do not suggest a grand plunge in to selflessness, I don't think that would be an effective approach. I agree it is better to work on yourself first before trying to extend to anyone else.

Questioner: We have decided to accept, if offered, the honor/duty of learning/teaching the healing process. I would ask as to the first step which we should accomplish in becoming effective healers.

Ra: I am Ra. We shall begin with the first of the three teachings/learnings.

We begin with the mental learn/teachings necessary for contact with intelligent infinity. The prerequisite of mental work is the ability to retain silence of self at a steady state when required by the self. The mind must be opened like a door. The key is silence.

Within the door lies an hierarchical construction you may liken unto geography and in some ways geometry, for the hierarchy is quite regular, bearing inner relationships.

To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself.

The second mental discipline is acceptance of the completeness within your consciousness. It is not for a being of polarity in the physical consciousness to pick and choose among attributes, thus building the roles that cause blockages and confusions in the already-distorted mind complex. Each acceptance smoothes part of the many distortions that the faculty you call judgment engenders.

The third discipline of the mind is a repetition of the first but with the gaze outward towards the fellow entities that it meets. In each entity there exists completeness. Thus, the ability to understand each balance is necessary. When you view patience, you are responsible for mirroring in your mental understanding, patience/impatience. When you view impatience, it is necessary for your mental configuration of understanding to be impatience/patience. We use this as a simple example. Most configurations of mind have many facets, and understanding of either self polarities, or what you would call other-self polarities, can and must be understood as subtle work.

The next step is the acceptance of the other-self polarities, which mirrors the second step.

These are the first four steps of learning mental discipline. The fifth step involves observing the geographical and geometrical relationships and ratios of the mind, the other mind, the mass mind, and the infinite mind.

The second area of learn/teaching is the study/understanding of the body complexes. It is necessary to know your body well. This is a matter of using the mind to examine how the feelings, the biases, what you would call the emotions, affect various portions of the body complex. It shall be necessary to both understand the bodily polarities and to accept them, repeating in a chemical/physical manifestation the work you have done upon the mind bethinking the consciousness.

The body is a creature of the mind’s creation. It has its biases. The biological bias must be first completely understood and then the opposite bias allowed to find full expression in understanding. Again, the process of acceptance of the body as a balanced, as well as polarized, individual may then be accomplished.

It is then the task to extend this understanding to the bodies of the other-selves whom you will meet. The simplest example of this is the understanding that each biological male is female; each biological female is male. This is a simple example. However, in almost every case wherein you are attempting the understanding of the body of self or other-self, you will again find that the most subtle discernment is necessary in order to fully grasp the polarity complexes involved.

At this time we would suggest closing the description until the next time of work so that we may devote time to the third area commensurate with its importance.

One of the key messages of Ra and of larger cosmic thinking is that of microcosm and macrocosm, as above, so below, you contain all that is in the universe, so any limitation of your identity to this or that becomes a charge which will manifest catalyst in your reality. You have experienced enough awakening to know that you have some influence in the events of your life.

Have you heard of Plato's allegory of the cave? You strike me as someone who has seen the light and knows of the cave, yet longs for the comfort of the familiar shadows on the wall.

I apologize if I come across as demeaning, I don't mean to, but first time I tried to help you said you thought I was just telling you what you want to hear, so I took that as a sign to take the kid gloves off. I am merely being challenging for the sake of firmness.