01-25-2017, 12:08 AM
I have pierced a number of veils but I certainly have yet to pierce the veil.
The desire within is akin to a desert thirsting for rain. It makes me wonder deeply of my ''previous'' orientation. Perhaps STS. In the same breath, the desire may still be STO oriented in that in order to be of maximum service, this unspeakable event must occur.
Over complexification of this thought-form is likely of little value yet I would bet others resonate with where I am coming from. It could simply be put in other words by saying that the desire for atonement with the Creator is like an inextinguishable/unstoppable raging fire the size of the world. The veil from which my dual/separative words spring is crystal clear to me yet, at least from the English implementation, language is a tricky medium of communication. Of course, I am already ''at one''. AND, I am experiencing separateness. It is a gift/joy yet due to the nature of the circumstances/events/experiences this lifetime has engendered, I cannot help but to be at times calmly but at others times ferociously adding trees and gasoline to the blaze.
Rereading this is quite funny. My non-solidified orientation is blatantly apparent. I have such a desire to be of service and have been of much over the course of my adult life whilst simultaneously the desire for 100% STS type spiritual practice equally beckons. Another part of me acknowledges the STO/STS ''boxes'' as limited where in actuality they are not. Hah!
The desire within is akin to a desert thirsting for rain. It makes me wonder deeply of my ''previous'' orientation. Perhaps STS. In the same breath, the desire may still be STO oriented in that in order to be of maximum service, this unspeakable event must occur.
Over complexification of this thought-form is likely of little value yet I would bet others resonate with where I am coming from. It could simply be put in other words by saying that the desire for atonement with the Creator is like an inextinguishable/unstoppable raging fire the size of the world. The veil from which my dual/separative words spring is crystal clear to me yet, at least from the English implementation, language is a tricky medium of communication. Of course, I am already ''at one''. AND, I am experiencing separateness. It is a gift/joy yet due to the nature of the circumstances/events/experiences this lifetime has engendered, I cannot help but to be at times calmly but at others times ferociously adding trees and gasoline to the blaze.
Rereading this is quite funny. My non-solidified orientation is blatantly apparent. I have such a desire to be of service and have been of much over the course of my adult life whilst simultaneously the desire for 100% STS type spiritual practice equally beckons. Another part of me acknowledges the STO/STS ''boxes'' as limited where in actuality they are not. Hah!
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