Last night, my partner randomly picked up an old newspaper on the desk and opened it. Sitting there was the biggest white tail spider we've ever seen. She says there was no logical explanation for why she picked it up but obviously it was a sign.
I was woken twice in the night and both times I was given a similar memory from the dream as a message.
The first time, I was in a room with the curtains drawn and I felt like there was an energy outside that was trying to look inside to see if there was anyone in there. I knew they suspected someone was in the room but they couldn't see me and wanted to get in to effect me negatively in some way. I felt like I didn't want them to see me or interact with me...I was trying to let the curtain do it's job but then I realized there was a crack I didn't know about and became visible to them and them to me. They looked like my ex-wife but different. Then they found a way to open a crack in the window n attack the curtain.
Then I woke up.
In the next dream, I was in a smaller cubical type of room with the same energy on the other side of the wall...I don't think there were any doors and I can't remember how I got there. Somehow it smashed the wall to pieces and was in the room with me but not to attack me. It was like it got through n wasn't hostile like before but kind of surprised at what it found.
Again, I woke.
This all seems to point to hidden aspects of self I'm still not seeing properly. I feel like my partner being influenced to find the spider meant that she's being guided to act in certain ways to get me to see the hidden aspects that are allowing certain behaviors and ways of being. That it was my ex-wife tells me that I need to work harder to forgive her and love her for allowing me to go through what we did to get to where we are.
I've been really focusing on balancing every negative emotion or thought I have and I think this is showing me that I'm being shown my weaknesses so that I can exist in the same space as them. It feels like the re-integration process is nearly complete.
I'd be keen to get others' input too so I can expand my understanding...
I was woken twice in the night and both times I was given a similar memory from the dream as a message.
The first time, I was in a room with the curtains drawn and I felt like there was an energy outside that was trying to look inside to see if there was anyone in there. I knew they suspected someone was in the room but they couldn't see me and wanted to get in to effect me negatively in some way. I felt like I didn't want them to see me or interact with me...I was trying to let the curtain do it's job but then I realized there was a crack I didn't know about and became visible to them and them to me. They looked like my ex-wife but different. Then they found a way to open a crack in the window n attack the curtain.
Then I woke up.
In the next dream, I was in a smaller cubical type of room with the same energy on the other side of the wall...I don't think there were any doors and I can't remember how I got there. Somehow it smashed the wall to pieces and was in the room with me but not to attack me. It was like it got through n wasn't hostile like before but kind of surprised at what it found.
Again, I woke.
This all seems to point to hidden aspects of self I'm still not seeing properly. I feel like my partner being influenced to find the spider meant that she's being guided to act in certain ways to get me to see the hidden aspects that are allowing certain behaviors and ways of being. That it was my ex-wife tells me that I need to work harder to forgive her and love her for allowing me to go through what we did to get to where we are.
I've been really focusing on balancing every negative emotion or thought I have and I think this is showing me that I'm being shown my weaknesses so that I can exist in the same space as them. It feels like the re-integration process is nearly complete.
I'd be keen to get others' input too so I can expand my understanding...