What is Choosing Your Vibration vs the Vibration Calling to You?

[anagogy]

Meaning, how much of it is us having to actively seek a certain vibration, vs the vibration that we truly want already being there, and it calls to us repeatedly and over and over.

Because sometimes it seems like a certain desired vibration is so strong that I cannot resist it any longer, and I enter the temporarily blissful state of being Harmonized with myself. In these instances I often have been resisting the positive vibration for a long period of time, and instead of redirecting myself to a negative state, it actually just ends up making the vibration's calling stronger and stronger, like the itch that gets stronger neverendingly until you scratch it.

But then sometimes I just lie curled up in bed for hours with no energy, not lack of energy, just in a neutral state in which I desire so much for a higher state of joy, but there seem to be no higher states of joy calling me to them.

What gives? Why is it that only sometimes the higher states of joy insistently knock on my brain-door until I get up and answer, and other times I pine for that irritatingly persistent visitor that is Love, to no avail?

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I think part of the nature of duality is such that we are going to experience a vacillation of emotion, whether we want to or not. In other-words, we are going to have ups and downs, and its just part of being human. I find it best not to try for perma bliss, because the pressure inherent in that thought/vibration is resistant and lack filled in nature. The best thing you can do in my humble opinion is to make peace with the fact that we will not always dwell in passionate blissful enthusiasm. It helps to ponder the truth that the neutral states (and even the negative contrasting states) actually enrich and reinforce appreciation for the blissful love filled enthusiastic states (when they occur).

All lower vibrational states are the result of some type of resistance, no matter how subtle and ineffable it might be. Your emotion is always saying: where your attention is pointed at this time is causing you to resonate with the object of attention. If that pattern matches 'who you really are at a spiritual level' you'll feel good, and if it doesn't, your emotions will waver into lower vibrational states. The best thing you can do when your vibration drops is find a way to appreciate the catalyst. Thank it for enhancing your appreciation and desire for the higher vibrational states. As an example, I was in a vibrant state of health for almost all of last year, and one day I started marveling at the fact that I hadn't even thought of my health in that entire time. I just took it for granted. Shortly thereafter, probably as a result of this realization, I manifested sickness inadvertently, and while being sick was miserable, it made me appreciate being healthy so much more. Its all about subtlety turning your thoughts downstream, and letting go of the resistance.

Gradual is the key to lasting change. Big jumps don't last usually because the vibrational disparity is too great (you can't properly accept the changes as part of your identity). The more you 'let go and let god', the faster the stream moves, and it takes you to who you naturally are at a source level (which is infinite power/love/peace/passion/wisdom/etc). You just have to release the oars, and the stream will turn you in the right direction.

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