What is Choosing Your Vibration vs the Vibration Calling to You?

[anagogy]

Why is it that sometimes the harmonious, Love vibration calls out so strongly that even my obstinate resistance seems to fall away like it's nothing? But other times my resistance definitely prevents Love from reaching me?

I feel like I've had multiple instances in which I am resisting love the same amount, but one time the Love seems to be saying, "nope, you actually want this amazing blissful feeling of peace right now, I do not accept your attempt at resistance." The other times are when Love is absent, and seems to be saying, "okay, you're actually right, you desire resistance right now." It seems like Love is variable when encountering my resistance, rather than my resistance being variable.

What's up with that yo

I'm not sure if I have any words that will resonate with you.

The only explanation I can offer you is this: if you have 2 scenarios with equal amounts of resistance, but in one you burst forth into love, and other you don't, the usual reason is that there is an increased desire for love in the one where you succeed.

It is distantly related to the scenario where a car breaks down on the train tracks, with a child locked inside the car, and the mother is on the outside, desperately trying to move the car before the train hits.

The desire of the mother is to move the car, and the child to safety, but there is resistance equal to the lack of belief in the ability to move the car (this equals the resistance to the desire unfolding). If the train wasn't coming, the resistance would similarly be there, but it might not be as intensely perceived because the desire to the move the vehicle off the tracks isn't as strong.

However, in the desperation of survival and the need to make this happen right now (because it is life or death), the attention becomes more purely focused on the intense desire than the beliefs preventing the desire (such as: "no ordinary mortal woman who is not a body builder can possibly lift this 2 ton vehicle off the tracks"). When that happens, the resistance is momentarily transcended, and the intensely focused desire is allowed to overpower the resistance, thereby allowing the miraculous manifestation to occur: the car is somehow lifted up, and everybody just chalks it up to adrenaline, even though that doesn't really adequately explain away the miraculousness of the event.

Resistance is the vibrational contradiction between desire and beliefs relative to that desire. If you want to drive forward, and a tree is in your way, preventing your forward acceleration (which is the desire), you can overcome that resistance in a couple different ways: you can 1) remove the tree barring your way (this is akin to removing limiting beliefs), you can 2) stop trying to drive forward (this is like releasing the desire, which will cancel resistance or vibrational contradiction or you can 3) increase desire to maximum amplitude and overpower the resistance (this is like flooring the gas and the tree in your way snapping off under the pressure and you go peeling out down the road).

It sounds like the scenario you described was a case of option 3) your desire overpowered the resistance and allowed you temporary alignment with a higher vibration.