03-15-2017, 02:35 PM
The expectations and the attachment are in a way not bad but helpful for me.
The resulting (unpleasant) emotions after a while take me down to the root of the issue, giving the opportunity to heal this.
Then it's not a matter of attaching or detaching anymore, it just stops being an issue, thats my favourite method of detachment
As for desires, im very un-buddhistic. I Love my desires
They take me exactly where i Need to be.
I had a nice experience a couple days ago:
I was feeling the Energy or Drive of my seeking very intensively.I realized, my desire for light is almost overwhelming when i fully allow it.
There is a fear however, i dont "make it" into the light in this lifetime.
This fear seems to Be connected with the Original seperation from oneness, at the beginning of the incarnation.
So there is a fear to feel this desire fully, in order not to experience the Lack of light!
After allowing the desire more and more, i realized, the desire for light is ultimately identical with light.
When I would totally completely and absolutely allow my desire for light, i would BE in the light!
This made me realize why Q'uo always speak of the purity of seeking being way more important than the "results".
I don't have to make it into the light, all i have to do is to allow and feel my desire for the light!
Sorry, that was off topic, but i felt the urge to share it
The resulting (unpleasant) emotions after a while take me down to the root of the issue, giving the opportunity to heal this.
Then it's not a matter of attaching or detaching anymore, it just stops being an issue, thats my favourite method of detachment
As for desires, im very un-buddhistic. I Love my desires
They take me exactly where i Need to be.
I had a nice experience a couple days ago:
I was feeling the Energy or Drive of my seeking very intensively.I realized, my desire for light is almost overwhelming when i fully allow it.
There is a fear however, i dont "make it" into the light in this lifetime.
This fear seems to Be connected with the Original seperation from oneness, at the beginning of the incarnation.
So there is a fear to feel this desire fully, in order not to experience the Lack of light!
After allowing the desire more and more, i realized, the desire for light is ultimately identical with light.
When I would totally completely and absolutely allow my desire for light, i would BE in the light!
This made me realize why Q'uo always speak of the purity of seeking being way more important than the "results".
I don't have to make it into the light, all i have to do is to allow and feel my desire for the light!
Sorry, that was off topic, but i felt the urge to share it