Being institutionalized.

[Agua del Cielo]

Hey CA,
i just have to tell you that i am wishing so much i could help improve your state of being and your situation!

I have never been in an "institution", but i can offer some things from the other side.

Here in germany most of these institutions are not really recommendable, i guess its even worse in the US.
However, we have a couple in the country that arereally good!

The good thing could be, it gives you some kind of structure and you can relax more, since you are not responsible for much except yourself.
Getting out of your mother's place would probably also be a good idea.

Some of these institutions do real good work, you might really benefit from group therapy and single sessions.
what i dont like is, that they are pretty fast with prescriptions.
Medication CAN be helpful, it CAN improve your mood artificially, making it possible to stabilize again and get things going.
So its not necessarily a bad thing. But still i dont like this really, except in the case of real emergency situations.

More often than not its more about keeping people "functional" and getthem back to work fast, i stead of really healing them.

But if things arereally bad, a "break" from your usual life and surrounding could be a good idea!