Anthropomorphic Shamanism

[AnthroHeart]

I read yesterday about facing your shadow self in the Celtic Shamanism book. It suggests you abstain from meat for 24 hours before you attempt that journey. I ate some because my mom had made dinner for us, and I didn't want to upset her by going out to eat. Plus I had just started shamanism like 3 days ago. So I'm not ready to face it.

Then in a dream last night I saw a part of my shadow self. In the dream she was my mom (but wasn't my mom in waking life), and I was a little girl. My mom in the dream had a robot that pursued me around trying to hurt me that she controlled. When I tried to stop the robot, my mom would punish me by smacking me with the side of a butcher's knife I believe. Though I don't remember being hit, but only threatened. I was like maybe a 5-year old girl in the dream, and was crying from being pursued like this. It was sort of slow paced and psychological.

You have to deal with your shadow self eventually. You need to let it know you are in control. You aren't here to destroy it, because that would hurt you. You have to come to terms with it and let it know it is not in control. That experience wasn't my whole shadow self, but my shadow self isn't a whole lot worse than that. It could be symbolic of why my mom used a robot to hurt me. The robot was pretty small, like 1-2 feet in height.