Help...

[SRGFourth]

I am somewhat saddened by some of the responses on here. Perhaps we should all take a moment to reflect on the fact that none of us were born knowing how to deal with this life, and that our reason isn't always sufficient to the challenges at hand.

I would like to add to this thread some thoughts I have been meditating on for a few days.

The Law is very, very simple. It is we who complicate it.

Forgiving yourself is very, very difficult. It is the key to finding peace.

Forgiving yourself while still judging yourself is impossible.
Yes, you know the path. Yes, you will fail at times. Yes, it is difficult.

C_A... Please, find a way to forgive yourself all the imperfections you have. You are eternal, and perfect, and simply in the midst of a "class" that has incredibly difficult subject matter for you. It's going to be okay.

I, too, often have a clear picture of my own faults. I smoke cigarettes, and I can't even stand them. I quit every morning, some days more successfully than others. I know and can list for you all of the horrible side effects, the blockages of energy, the social consequences, the money drain.. and yet, I fail nearly every day in my effort to quit.

Will this persist? Likely, yes, for some time. Will it end? Absolutely - one way or another. Do I have any idea when I will finally let it go for good? Not a single damned clue.

Please, C_A, try to live in just the moment. If you can just love yourself right -now-, and temporarily let go of the regrets of the past, or the anxieties of the future, then maybe you can see how amazing you really are.

You seem to have a keen eye for insight. The world needs that, my friend.

I humbly request that you learn to forgive yourself so that you might one day help me forgive myself. I know, because it is clear in this thread alone, that you are deeply loved and appreciated in ways you don't yet see. For those of us who seem always to circle back around to our own willpower, and can never truly find the answers in another person's words or thoughts... I believe it is we who must face the fires of hell, endure our scars, and stand as testament to the power of self-forgiveness.

Only you can forgive yourself. I hope, and pray, that you do.


(Remember - one of Ra's most important admonitions was that "there are no mistakes". We who are entangled with the Devil are the only ones who have the chance to learn how to rise above him.)