Doing something wrong to prevent greater evil?

[Night Owl]

I don't think you're stupid. We do the things we do for reasons and it is a very important to acknowledge them. Altering our state of mind answer a need. For me it started by breaking my barriers and oh boy it did. I had so much preconceptions back then. I thought drugs were stupid and people who did drugs were just stupid. In fact I maybe even thought everyone was stupid. I was most likely the most stupid of all of them.

Interestingly I've done many drugs after that. All limitations and preconceptions I had disappeared and I stopped judging people so severely so drugs have been very helpful for me. I can't I'm 100% judgment free but it's night and day compared to my teenage years. So I can't judge you for using them, you just need to know which need you are answering with them. Once you know that, you can more easily decide with your conscious mind when it is good for you and when it is abuse.

Don't beat yourself up because of past abuse, we're all prone to that in different ways. I also tend to beat myself up sometimes. Having friends who were a lot more carefree than me has helped me a lot about that.