Doing something wrong to prevent greater evil?

[rva_jeremy]

Yeah it's always like that when I smoke little. but when I used it all day everyday, it didn't have the same effects anymore.

See, what I'm trying to get across in a very poor way, my apologies, is exactly what Night Owl said: it's not the drug at all. I mean, I can't know for certain with you, but I have my suspicions.

I used to blame drugs for my lack of reflection, spiritual responsibility, etc. But for me it really came down to blaming drug use and using that as an excuse not to delve deeper.

Your milage may vary but there is no use in being so hard on yourself. We're all doing the best we can.