I’m gonna have a go at this, but it might be a little difficult to explain. I can only convey it through explaining my own “mindset” these days…. although I don’t think it comes from the mind, I sense it has its origin elsewhere… lol… I knew this was going to be difficult to explain, but let me attempt it anyway.
A philosopher I listen to often, said one day “pretend you’re dead, then you have nothing to lose”. He said it in a certain context of course, almost as an afterthought, maybe for anyone listening who might not have “understood” what he was trying to convey. It was a pedagogical trick, if you may, but it worked.
I’m going with what you said with regard to being uncomfortable in certain situations, which of course applies to all of us at some point or another. The talk mixed in Taoism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Zen, Christianity… all of it, but I knew what he meant, it kind of hit me. Something in this has to do with faith, that much misunderstood concept, which for me personally is almost the “holy grail” in the Ra material. On my first read of it, I could not understand why they said to Carla “There is no necessity for negative thought-forms regardless of pain distortions.” I thought to myself… how on earth is that even possible? Needless to say, it made a huge impression on me, and I thought of it often.
I’m not sure exactly if it is just a culmination of everything I have ever read, contemplated, meditated upon, insights I had, all my experiences, all the messes I got myself into, all the dead-ends… hearing the same mysterious things over and over again, rattling about in my head and then finally falling into place…
It’s a complete letting go, and it’s the most freeing thing in the world. It’s faith, or at least the closest I have come to it. I don’t know if I’m making any sense, you know that these things can’t be explained in words. Words are just so inefficient and clumsy. Even rereading what I have written so far, I can see I’m not getting it across. I don’t know if it’s the “void” that you so often encounter in Eastern religions, but it’s almost a complete disregard for the self, and “disregard” is the best English word I can think of. I know it’s what Buddha meant with “detachment”, and even detachment is a poor word choice.
You pretend you don’t exist, you’re already dead, and you lose all attachment to outcome. Nothing is serious anymore, nothing matters. “Gain” or “loss” is all the same, illusory… He gave the advice to Westerners specifically, because it’s so difficult for Westerners to grasp the concept.
Joel Goldsmith once tried to convey the same concept in one of his talks “all the silver in the world is mine”. There can be no ownership. You are the Creator, and the creator is all, every single one, then ownership is the strangest concept, because all is “owned” by all.
It’s maybe the last few months that these changes started happening in me. It’s a complete letting go, nothing is serious. I am doing something at the moment (starting a new company), and everything just flows, there are no obstacles in the road. Sometimes it amazes me. How can it be this easy? I just smile and say thank you... you, me, everyone... let's play. I just do what I do, without regard to outcome. Death is not serious to me, not my own or anyone else’s. I just let go… is that faith? It’s all a game to me, I came here to play. When I go into situations which previously would have made me tense, there is just nothing there, because I’m “dead”. I see how people worry, and I wish I could convey to them “this thing”. I try, and I fail. There is no place to hide, but you don’t need to hide.
Some mornings I wake up, and I have this “sensation”, I can only describe it as freedom. Guilt has fallen off me, there is no past, no future. It feels so good. I tried to explain it to my friend who shares my apartment with me, and she looked at me as if I was crazy. But even as the words came out of my mouth, I knew I was messing it up. It’s ineffable. I trust myself, I trust others, I trust the world… The sensation dissipates gradually as the morning goes on.
It’s a complete letting go, Austin. It’s maybe “faith”, what do I know? I can only guess you’re holding on to something maybe, a certain desire, a certain outcome. Do what you do for the love of it, and let the chips fall where they may. Stop worrying, this is a benevolent universe.
I have kind of been putting myself out there with this post, I don’t know if it will make any sense. It comes and goes at this point, when it comes, and I want to grasp it, it slips away, and when I let go, it returns...
A philosopher I listen to often, said one day “pretend you’re dead, then you have nothing to lose”. He said it in a certain context of course, almost as an afterthought, maybe for anyone listening who might not have “understood” what he was trying to convey. It was a pedagogical trick, if you may, but it worked.
I’m going with what you said with regard to being uncomfortable in certain situations, which of course applies to all of us at some point or another. The talk mixed in Taoism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Zen, Christianity… all of it, but I knew what he meant, it kind of hit me. Something in this has to do with faith, that much misunderstood concept, which for me personally is almost the “holy grail” in the Ra material. On my first read of it, I could not understand why they said to Carla “There is no necessity for negative thought-forms regardless of pain distortions.” I thought to myself… how on earth is that even possible? Needless to say, it made a huge impression on me, and I thought of it often.
I’m not sure exactly if it is just a culmination of everything I have ever read, contemplated, meditated upon, insights I had, all my experiences, all the messes I got myself into, all the dead-ends… hearing the same mysterious things over and over again, rattling about in my head and then finally falling into place…
It’s a complete letting go, and it’s the most freeing thing in the world. It’s faith, or at least the closest I have come to it. I don’t know if I’m making any sense, you know that these things can’t be explained in words. Words are just so inefficient and clumsy. Even rereading what I have written so far, I can see I’m not getting it across. I don’t know if it’s the “void” that you so often encounter in Eastern religions, but it’s almost a complete disregard for the self, and “disregard” is the best English word I can think of. I know it’s what Buddha meant with “detachment”, and even detachment is a poor word choice.
You pretend you don’t exist, you’re already dead, and you lose all attachment to outcome. Nothing is serious anymore, nothing matters. “Gain” or “loss” is all the same, illusory… He gave the advice to Westerners specifically, because it’s so difficult for Westerners to grasp the concept.
Joel Goldsmith once tried to convey the same concept in one of his talks “all the silver in the world is mine”. There can be no ownership. You are the Creator, and the creator is all, every single one, then ownership is the strangest concept, because all is “owned” by all.
It’s maybe the last few months that these changes started happening in me. It’s a complete letting go, nothing is serious. I am doing something at the moment (starting a new company), and everything just flows, there are no obstacles in the road. Sometimes it amazes me. How can it be this easy? I just smile and say thank you... you, me, everyone... let's play. I just do what I do, without regard to outcome. Death is not serious to me, not my own or anyone else’s. I just let go… is that faith? It’s all a game to me, I came here to play. When I go into situations which previously would have made me tense, there is just nothing there, because I’m “dead”. I see how people worry, and I wish I could convey to them “this thing”. I try, and I fail. There is no place to hide, but you don’t need to hide.
Some mornings I wake up, and I have this “sensation”, I can only describe it as freedom. Guilt has fallen off me, there is no past, no future. It feels so good. I tried to explain it to my friend who shares my apartment with me, and she looked at me as if I was crazy. But even as the words came out of my mouth, I knew I was messing it up. It’s ineffable. I trust myself, I trust others, I trust the world… The sensation dissipates gradually as the morning goes on.
It’s a complete letting go, Austin. It’s maybe “faith”, what do I know? I can only guess you’re holding on to something maybe, a certain desire, a certain outcome. Do what you do for the love of it, and let the chips fall where they may. Stop worrying, this is a benevolent universe.
I have kind of been putting myself out there with this post, I don’t know if it will make any sense. It comes and goes at this point, when it comes, and I want to grasp it, it slips away, and when I let go, it returns...