My mental health is rapidly deteriorating

[Glow]

That is a judgement you cannot possible know to be truth.
We all have our distortions and our piece of the truth to share. Why should Osho or anyone else be expected to be perfect?
He has been very useful to many fostering courage in others to break free from their indoctrination.

All gurus are imperfect just like us. or is that perfect just like us? perfectly imperfect just like us.

I don't expect a guru to be perfect. I just expect him to be more spiritual than the average man.

I don't. I mean to me wanting followers or notoriety or to be put on a pedestal is to me a bit of an egoic distortion right off the bat. He has said some good things, but then so have many others.