Did anyone else know they were reliving their life before awakening?

[GentleReckoning]

Yes, I have had this

When I do something inharmonious, it comes back around very fast, and nowadays I know what's going on. My life used to be an endless cycle of disharmony, rejecting the catalyst offered, unnatural depression, and intensifying of the catalyst. Now it's better because I recognize I must accept it now or it will come back more intense

Still is hard though

Just thought forms that you've grown attached to. Act this way, cause this kind of impact, be this way do this thing. When you act contrary to those thought forms your whole reality attacks you for it, because it is those thought forms, and not you that create your reality.

To actually independently create your reality (the best way to learn), you have to let go of all thoughts of being this or that. Good or evil. Abrasive or kind.

Once you do this, you have choice. You can negatively impact people, positively impact people, or impact people in a balanced fashion or honestly.