If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[AnthroHeart]

I kept thinking I had to die like Jesus to save people, except the room turned into a giant microwave oven that would kill me that way. But there wasn't any pain. It was just freaky.

I resonate except the microwave. I felt like I was sacrificing my own soul - taking one for team humanity - to save another soul. Like an angel :/
And rather than a microwave, I ended up in the pits of hell-fire.

There was also a time when I was feeling down and typed into YouTube "Ra, are you there?"

Then I found a song called "Do you Call My Name?" by a group named Ra.

But it was a very dark song. I thought that my actions had trapped Ra in Negative space and that Ra was going to come after me for doing that to them.
I did get a little scared, but I thanked Ra anyway for teaching me a lesson. I wanted to be a furry anthro. At other times I wanted to be an angel, and thought I had to go through trials to get there.

Wow - definitely resonate. What happened to us? I really wonder if it's this opening of higher energies too soon. I thought I had to go through trials too, that these fears coming up were tests for me to love/work on. And maybe they are... ugh. This stuff is mad in modern society, hard to mainstream-society when your mind is in another reality.

They may have been tests to see if we could handle the energy rather than tests of our character.

I remember being stuck in a puzzle/knot of energy patterns I had created and Ra helped me reverse out of it. I even saw a miniature Ra in a holographic form who did hand signs like magic.

These tests/simulations are around your beliefs. They tell you a lot about yourself.

Like I love anthro characters, and when I'm emotionally hypersensitive in those states things can be too adorable for me to handle, and I have to turn down the adorableness.

Yes, adorableness was a property I could adjust to my experience I was hallucinating. As was wisdom. If I was watching a video, I could turn down the wisdom it was telling if it was too much.

It's amazing the whole gamut of wisdom that can be explored, even around something so specific as myself.

I remember being taught while watching a movie with family that they weren't really there. I would hear more on this later.

I've since learned that no matter what you know, there is more that can leave you in awe of the Universe. I have learned not to take life so seriously.