Rasputin's choice

[Cainite]

Most people who speak of negative tendencies tend to be dealing with emotional wounding, and are just taking protective measures.

Yes. but that was eight years ago. I felt betrayed and did things that now I have trouble forgiving.
When I try to forgive myself it seems not possible. because I don't feel I deserve it even though I know I'm the creator.

It's a dead end and I just try to ignore the problem. no matter how hard it is. to avoid negative feelings.