If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

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I find that if I'm learning a spiritual truth or gaining spiritual knowledge, that it can knock me out too. I think it has something to do with the brain only being able to handle so much information at once.

I'm glad you're letting it out. While I haven't read every word you wrote, I can still resonate.

I have wondered too if I have a parallel self, though I usually wonder that about an anthro like my avatar/profile image.

I'm always wondering what happens after death. That's my main focus. Like who will meet me right after I die. It isn't morbid, but I usually get a thrill. Though sometimes I make my life choices by how well I think I will do in the afterlife. It can take me away from the here and now.

It is all HERE and NOW. In truth, even space and time are illusions. There is only ONE of us here. ONE being. ONE mind. We are the Universe experiencing itself.

But all this may be old knowledge to you.

I wonder about death too, not as much anymore but when I was dying I think it instigated something within me. Then I thought I actually died which brought up a lot more (I'd died a few times in my life and only had the 'blackout' experience, like when you wake up), but I've had some other weird kinda NDE like experiences unrelated to those 'real deaths', and also when I surrendered completely after my health went really bad and I was bedridden and I 'gave up', I just let go. And everything was different after that. For one, I absolutely no longer fear death - I don't "long for it" or want to rush it lol, but I don't fear it anymore - whereas I used to live in fear of death.

So many possibilities whilst trying to figure out what happened. I felt like a different being. I even went searching for answers and thought that maybe I was a "walk-in" because everything was different. I contemplated whether I had stepped into a parallel reality or quantum jumped. I couldn't understand how I went from death to well (it didn't happen overnight but very quickly). I thought maybe another part of my soul had stepped in - like, that this aspect "couldn't handle it" and another aspect said "no worries - I'll do the next chapter!" and so "I" died and another me stepped in, and had to deal with the body that I had damaged badly but with the new mindset and mission, it worked with what it had. It was so freakin' bizarre (life was the same but relationships changed, health changed, I had changed - I was different). Slowly I've re-integrated the fact that maybe the surrender just let go of a lot of past stuff, and a new me emerged from it, but often I think... did I actually die? What happened? Maybe when you die and you still have uncompleted stuff, you just "continue where you left off", like.. you don't get that opportunity lol.. that you have to finish what you started, so you end up .. not dying from your perspective, that you step into the same existence until you have done what you came here to do (maybe we die all the time, and this is our normal from this lens that we've created). And that doesn't make sense to a lot of theories out there, but it's kinda like how I experienced it so I try and make it work sometimes with my limited knowledge of the infinite possibilities of all that is.

This is completely unrelated to what I've been talking about on this post, this happened a couple of years before that. It's what "healed me" and put me on this crazy path because it opened up a never-ending stream of questions that I needed answers about.

When I do the tarot or talk to 'whoever it is that is answering'. I think about those who have passed-away and wonder if it's them. But I don't know who would meet me on the other-side because I haven't considered myself really close to anyone that has died. But I've had some really awesome shivers/goosebumps experiences with our dearly departed, and recently was led to someone and that was major shivers (good ones, like "conformation" ones). And interestingly I should be moving into that house temporarily soon and we'll see what comes of that. Definitely feel led to explore whatever it is that is happening in that house and it's connection to the transitioned as 2 people that I am friends with transitioned there in the past year.

Whilst I do believe we are creation exploring creation, I'm still trying to live this particular aspect, because when I don't, I get in trouble lol. When I feel like I'm getting messages from the other-side, or creator, or other beings/allies/helpers.. I have moments when things just feel so confirming, like - I'm so certain, it doesn't feel random.

Other times, I don't feel a connection at all. But there's a sense when you're "tapped in" and I want to understand it more and tap-in more, and I also want to make sure I know how to 'not tap in' to whatever led me into trouble lol

I'd never heard of anthro until your messages, I don't know much about them - never crossed paths with the word before, let alone seen them until you