If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[Steppingfeet]

I think this would've taken me decades more if I hadn't of found the IChing when I did. I trusted noone, especially not myself or any "guidance". I turned everything off and shut everyone out and was just left with my crazy "none of this can be real, I must be the crazy delusional one" and anyone else that agreed with me that I must be nuts.

Good point. Guidance can only be offered insofar as it's requested or willing to be received. Someone in your shoes or similar is not going to be aided by even the most applicable guidance. I suppose such a one, then, is on their own, or more on their own than my be necessary.

I'm getting into The Wanderer's Handbook lately and want to re-read the Law of One from a calmer perspective (rather than a "rush to advance" perspective as I was previously... when I was trying to injest all the knowledge of everything at once and I couldn't get it all fast enough lol.. from listening to mp3s/podcasts/doco's etc all through the night and while I was driving and reading books at the same time. I trusted my mind would kinda figure it all out and put everything in place and the "truth will be revealed". No wonder my mind went cross-eyed trying to organize the info. I was also in conspiracy groups and we were exploring our various perspectives about how the world works. Yeah. There is no race (but it felt like it was a race at the time for some reason).

You are a person of stamina and drive. That is a potent quality for the long spiritual trek - once it is balanced. I can only guess but it sounds like you are finding that balance while still wielding and honing your hunger.

I've always enjoyed this quote from Huston Smith's The World's Religions:



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The Buddha laid tremendous stress on the will. Reaching the goal requires immense exertion … by what William James called “the slow dull heave of the will.” “Those who follow the Way,” said Buddha, “Might well follow the example of an ox that marches through the deep mire carrying a heavy load. He is tired, but his steady gaze, looking forward, will never relax until he comes out of the mire, and it is only then he takes a respite.” … Velleity—a low level of volition, a mere wish not accompanied by effort or action to obtain it—won’t do.
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I noticed the tape recordings of the channellings of the Law of One are available, but if they are just "one-word-at-a-time" that might be hard to listen to? Have they also been converted into audible books somewhere? I remember listening to some of them on youtube.

Jim has actually narrated nearly all of L/L's books. He does a supreme job. We are on the cusp of launching the first one: Living the Law of One 101. Austin is just waiting word from Audible. By next year we'll have published the Ra Contact as well. : )

Btw, your description of "nothingness" brings to mind something that I recall St John of the Cross describing as "aridity." It's been too long for me to comment in an informed way, but there are stages when emotions and senses seem deadened or numbed, especially relative to the vivid sensitivities that preceded.