09-21-2017, 02:33 PM
(09-21-2017, 11:43 AM)Stranger Wrote: Within the context of Creation/Illusion, free will refers not to being able to do whatever you want, but to being able to choose how to react to whatever you're presented with.
That's not free will then. So are you implying that one should be okay with someone else planning a rather horrible life for them for the sake of "experience" or because "its actually fun but you just don't see that it is from down here"?
(09-21-2017, 11:43 AM)Stranger Wrote: And his plan is that all his evolving forms must pass through the sequence of densities before returning home to full unity.
What if I don't want to unite with the Creator, why can't I just be me? I don't want to be the Creator, I just want to be me. Do I have a choice in this or will unity be forced onto me in the end when the Creator wants all his pieces back?
You know I have never asked for much, all I ever wanted was freedom to be me, freedom to explore and travel interstellar space (but I know this part will never happen). Did you know Stranger that I never really forgot? That I always knew there was more? I guess the Veil of Forgetting didnt hit me as hard as it has others.
The more and more I go through this kind of information I begin to wonder who is this all for because it doesnt look like its for me/us. Try to imagine how I feel, to go through thousands of years of incarnations and abuse (which is what it is) to then have your personality diluted in unity in the end and you pretty much fade away. That sounds horrible. Logically when all the Creators pieces return to unity there will be only one personality/identity, all the other identities will be gone.
To be honest, and I dont want to alarm anyone here but, I have been contemplating suicide for a long time now. If everything I experience is for the Creator and not for me then what is the point? If unity is the end then how I get there is irrelevant because I wont have a choice anyway right?
I just want to be me
