How do you feel about death, your own, other peoples, in general?

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I have been wanting to work with the dying for the last 2 years. I know it sounds weird but its such an important time where often people feel alone with their fears, regrets, memories and either have no one or no one open to hearing and processing these things with them.
2 years shows you're definitely being called to it (imo) and it's not weird - the separation of death from our lives is what's weird.
I see your feelings as healthy and "life affirming".

I don't know why but the thought of being there for them in this time, helping to unburden them, letting them be heard, help them to understand themselves, their fears, and past. It just seems like such a beautiful gift for both the one dying and the one who is there exploring it with them.
This is such a great description, and it shows how clearly you 'get' "it" And this understanding qualifies you for training for the work. Have you heard the term "end of life midwife" ? (aka: "death doula").. there are lots of articles and organisations - if you google the term there's lots of links.

I think most people are never really known, they don't get to tell their story, what haunts them, resolve it, put it to bed for this life and I'd like to offer that. YES ! The thought chokes me up so much at being able to be there for that.

Not sure if this is an egoic desire or my soul. Feels like it could be both.
I think if it was egoic you wouldn't have written this post

I keep looking at hospice volunteer opportunities but fear steps in.
This is healthy - without it you might be disconnected with the significance of the work. The fear - the hesitation; qualifies you as a candidate (imo).
I've cared for dying (nursing homes) but never to point of death as the doctors usually took over - or I was redirected to other residents to attend to - and later, my life/work path went in a different direction (disability care with children).
The wish to honour by listening to the lives of people (who often think they achieved little and mean nothing to anyone) - is one of the greatest gifts to give (and receive from). To show someone how much you care about them simply for their presence, for their having come and had a life in this world, to offer to really be there for someone who may have never had that full listening their whole life prior - who either has no-one there for them as they 'leave' - and/or to assist family/friends to assist them - is a blessed thing - for us as much as for them
When I worked in a 'Nursing Home' I had an elderly patient who was completely withdrawn, shut-down; so I asked staff about his previous life - he'd been a small time shopkeeper and in the local Town Hall Jazz Band - so I'd sing jazz to him (while washing, dressing and feeding him) and brought in his favourite cd's. He began to lift his head up, eat more and started talking to me about his memories.
It's heartbreaking how people can be left with no-one at the end of their lives...
ADDITION: It's heart WARMING to see (and better still be) the change in this part of life.

Am I ready? am I healed enough to do this with the precision and lack of trigger it deserves? Discuss this with someone who does this work - they'll know. I get so moved by the beauty of being with someone, and truly witnessing them without the mask of keeping up appearances that I'm not sure I wouldn't get tears in my eyes. That might be sad for them if they misinterpret, so would be adding distress inadvertently.
With training and the right mentor this would be worked through - and tears are not a bad thing either... overall it would be a learning curve which you would get assistance with.
(I once had a mental health crisis worker's eyes fill with tears from hearing what I was going through - and it helped incredibly - I could visibly see that she believed me and that she cared.)

I'm wondering what you all feel towards death and the process.
Is it sort of twisted I see so much beauty in the process? I don't want to judge myself like that but most people avoid death, find it sad.
Is it odd to see it as beautiful? No

As usual my post isn't clear, I guess I'd just like your take on this bring 4th. (I find you clear )