Well I apologise for derailing your thread, and thanks for extrapolating your thoughts even further. I can also understand why you're angry, just look at what the world looks like. Open any news website and you will be forgiven for thinking it's all going to hell in a handbasket. Ra did mention that our species is somewhat peculiar in the fact that we evolve through trauma... "It is to be noted that among your entities a large percentage of all progression has as catalyst, trauma." Why that is the case, I simply don't know. I sometimes entertain the thought that once you've been to Earth, you get to wear a special badge, and everywhere else you travel in the universe subsequently, people go "phew! Have you been to EARTH!"
I also honestly can't tell you why the information contained in the Ra material isn't strange to me, it was simply a revelation to me. The bible's explanation of evil never made sense to me, I knew it was hogwash. So I basically turned my back on religion in my teens already, and then I just wandered in the wilderness. I had the wildest 20s of anyone I know. We were completely out of control, and all we cared about was partying. I wrapped my car around a pole one night after we had been partying the whole day, and I climbed out without a scratch. When I saw what the car looked like the next day, I knew it was impossible to have survived it. There was just nothing left of it, it was unrecognisable as a car. I had this cold shiver running down my spine when I saw it.
Did that stop us? Nope! It was a big joke! I was the anomaly! Until my best friend died in a car accident, he burned to death, and then the party was over. I started building a career and worked day and night, I was like a machine. I worked from 9 in the morning till 2 the next morning, 7 days a week, year in and year out. Started a company, sold it within 3 years. I thrived on stress, there was not a project I wouldn't take on, there was no such thing as biting off more than you can chew, you just chew faster. I ran shows in the Superbowl that took months and months of preparation, which was just one big adrenaline rush. All was going well, except, it was all so empty. I couldn't shake the feeling that it was meaningless. I would walk to my car in the parking lot at 2 in the morning after another day's work, and look up at the sky and wonder "is this it? This is just awful." One night I left the office early, 7ish, which was early for me, it was Winter, and I could smell people's fireplaces, and suddenly this extreme loneliness came over me. I'll never forget that moment. It was the most extreme emptiness I have ever felt. I cried in the car all the way home. But life had other plans for me, I wasn't gonna let go, so life made me lose it all. It all came crushing down in spectacular fashion. I ended up in the emergency room 3 times from pure stress, they called it "career woman's disease"! I look back on it now and see it as the best thing that ever happened to me.
Then a bunch of us decided to go diving in Mozambique, and that week something inside of me started coming alive again. When I was under the water, I thought to myself "you can't tell me there isn't a God, not when you look at this". I swam with dolphins, I swam next to a giant whale, and he just looked at me with that giant eye if his. I wandered through the towns in between dives, and the people were just so happy, even though they were so poor. They lived in paradise, and life was sweet for them. I thought to myself "how could I have gone so wrong? Why did I take everything so seriously?" On my last dive I lost the group, and then I spotted this perfect cross (Christian cross) in the coral, perfectly formed, and I ran my hand over it. And then I knew it was time to continue the search, I just knew I had to keep searching. For what? I didn't know. I was light in spirit, and relaxed, and invigorated. And then I started ferociously reading, book after book after book, searching for answers. So the day I discovered the Ra material, was a turning point for me. I was just so overjoyed. I read it 3 times in succession. Suddenly life was beautiful. This Oneness concept was something wholly new to me, but I just knew that I had the truth in my hands.
So yeah, you can say the material was earth shattering for me. Suddenly I could read other esoteric texts, and understand it. I went further back and found older philosophical texts, and saw the same message. Suddenly the Gospels made sense to me. I tell this story to let you know that after my experience with discovering this material, I am no longer lost in the wilderness. I owe my life to Don, Carla and Jim, for giving me this gift. I hope I bump into them one day in some other reality, to thank them. I hope you get your groove back, and I hope you remember to keep your sense of humour. This reality is quite bizarre anyway, we are all clinging to a ball flying through space in some galaxy somewhere in the universe, we don't even know where. Drop the seriousness, it's not serious. Stick it on the wall if you forget, nothing is serious. That's the biggest lesson Alan Watts taught me. It's a game, a stage play, an adventure, and it's fun. Enjoy it! I shared this because when I see someone who is in possession of the same gift as me, this material, who is so disheartened, it just perplexes me. I really hope you get that happiness back you had in 2014, it's a good place to be, and it comes from living in faith. Living in faith makes all the magic happen.
Sorry for derailing your thread!
PS. I also don't like the "like" button.
I also honestly can't tell you why the information contained in the Ra material isn't strange to me, it was simply a revelation to me. The bible's explanation of evil never made sense to me, I knew it was hogwash. So I basically turned my back on religion in my teens already, and then I just wandered in the wilderness. I had the wildest 20s of anyone I know. We were completely out of control, and all we cared about was partying. I wrapped my car around a pole one night after we had been partying the whole day, and I climbed out without a scratch. When I saw what the car looked like the next day, I knew it was impossible to have survived it. There was just nothing left of it, it was unrecognisable as a car. I had this cold shiver running down my spine when I saw it.
Did that stop us? Nope! It was a big joke! I was the anomaly! Until my best friend died in a car accident, he burned to death, and then the party was over. I started building a career and worked day and night, I was like a machine. I worked from 9 in the morning till 2 the next morning, 7 days a week, year in and year out. Started a company, sold it within 3 years. I thrived on stress, there was not a project I wouldn't take on, there was no such thing as biting off more than you can chew, you just chew faster. I ran shows in the Superbowl that took months and months of preparation, which was just one big adrenaline rush. All was going well, except, it was all so empty. I couldn't shake the feeling that it was meaningless. I would walk to my car in the parking lot at 2 in the morning after another day's work, and look up at the sky and wonder "is this it? This is just awful." One night I left the office early, 7ish, which was early for me, it was Winter, and I could smell people's fireplaces, and suddenly this extreme loneliness came over me. I'll never forget that moment. It was the most extreme emptiness I have ever felt. I cried in the car all the way home. But life had other plans for me, I wasn't gonna let go, so life made me lose it all. It all came crushing down in spectacular fashion. I ended up in the emergency room 3 times from pure stress, they called it "career woman's disease"! I look back on it now and see it as the best thing that ever happened to me.
Then a bunch of us decided to go diving in Mozambique, and that week something inside of me started coming alive again. When I was under the water, I thought to myself "you can't tell me there isn't a God, not when you look at this". I swam with dolphins, I swam next to a giant whale, and he just looked at me with that giant eye if his. I wandered through the towns in between dives, and the people were just so happy, even though they were so poor. They lived in paradise, and life was sweet for them. I thought to myself "how could I have gone so wrong? Why did I take everything so seriously?" On my last dive I lost the group, and then I spotted this perfect cross (Christian cross) in the coral, perfectly formed, and I ran my hand over it. And then I knew it was time to continue the search, I just knew I had to keep searching. For what? I didn't know. I was light in spirit, and relaxed, and invigorated. And then I started ferociously reading, book after book after book, searching for answers. So the day I discovered the Ra material, was a turning point for me. I was just so overjoyed. I read it 3 times in succession. Suddenly life was beautiful. This Oneness concept was something wholly new to me, but I just knew that I had the truth in my hands.
So yeah, you can say the material was earth shattering for me. Suddenly I could read other esoteric texts, and understand it. I went further back and found older philosophical texts, and saw the same message. Suddenly the Gospels made sense to me. I tell this story to let you know that after my experience with discovering this material, I am no longer lost in the wilderness. I owe my life to Don, Carla and Jim, for giving me this gift. I hope I bump into them one day in some other reality, to thank them. I hope you get your groove back, and I hope you remember to keep your sense of humour. This reality is quite bizarre anyway, we are all clinging to a ball flying through space in some galaxy somewhere in the universe, we don't even know where. Drop the seriousness, it's not serious. Stick it on the wall if you forget, nothing is serious. That's the biggest lesson Alan Watts taught me. It's a game, a stage play, an adventure, and it's fun. Enjoy it! I shared this because when I see someone who is in possession of the same gift as me, this material, who is so disheartened, it just perplexes me. I really hope you get that happiness back you had in 2014, it's a good place to be, and it comes from living in faith. Living in faith makes all the magic happen.
Sorry for derailing your thread!
PS. I also don't like the "like" button.
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