10-22-2017, 05:18 PM
Believe it or not those are more just general covering my ass remarks. The real advice was more first trying to make sure this isn't pain being caused by something like a slipped spinal disc pinching on nerves or a hernia or stuff like that.
But if you are certain then I will try to assist on a more metaphysical level.
Are you familiar with self forgiveness? Sjel, we're all unconscious at one point, it's okay. You don't need to be so hard on yourself.
You stopped making music, but you loved to do that man! I think you shouldn't stop doing what you love, especially if you're good at it. I think you're a petty nice person, and you're asking for advice so, I'll give it.
That pain, is a gateway man. You're the holder of the fires that signal it to open but you resist it or perhaps something else, but the idea is you can find a way to discover what this means. Whether it's a preincarnated plan for self discovery, or a catalyst designed to give you a curve ball in the game of life.
Perhaps you should look at all of those memories from the viewpoint of self forgiveness, attempt to find reasons to forgive instead of judge.
I hate to preach but Jesus had that whole 'they know not what they do' thing going on and it worked pretty well for him. Resolved him of all his karma. The pain ended too. Albeit he died, in your case if you approach it with a new viewpoint, a new perspective, maybe you'll see the good that all of that unconsciousness has molded you, or me, to be. How we learned in the innocence of exploration, as many animals do, that gave us the experiences that led us to who we are today as self conscious beings.
It's unfair to judge the unconscious acts of humans, were we all born fully aware and not as infants perhaps it'd be fair. But we're not. We progressed from unthinking babies to curious children to rebellious teens to unaware young adults to...whatever oldness we are now that is self aware. You've been granted a whole life experiences of unconscious behavior as grist for the grind of simply discovering the infinite love in any of those moments, in discovering their..Sacredness. The Point to their existence. Their potential. There's a lot of sides to any of those moments though.
You can view it from the side of judgment, and see it as a painful memory.
Or you can view it from the side of forgiveness, and see it as a helpful memory of learned lessons.
Or you can view it from the side of love, and find that there is a magical reason for those moments of the past to benefit your future you in the present now.
Love knows no boundaries, it is the great astral connector. So try to remember there's more than one view or perspective to view anything that is bothering you in memory. Especially of such innocent moments as unconscious ones even if seemingly not innocent, the point is to forgive anyways, and find the love in the moment of those moments.
Anyway, I hope you don't mind my boldness, I might be completely wrong, I'm just trying to be helpful and remind you that searching for forgiveness and sacredness and love in those painful memories might reveal a whole new side to them. It might help release you from yourself too.
Sorry for sounding rude before too. I didn't mean to come off that way.
But if you are certain then I will try to assist on a more metaphysical level.
Are you familiar with self forgiveness? Sjel, we're all unconscious at one point, it's okay. You don't need to be so hard on yourself.
You stopped making music, but you loved to do that man! I think you shouldn't stop doing what you love, especially if you're good at it. I think you're a petty nice person, and you're asking for advice so, I'll give it.
That pain, is a gateway man. You're the holder of the fires that signal it to open but you resist it or perhaps something else, but the idea is you can find a way to discover what this means. Whether it's a preincarnated plan for self discovery, or a catalyst designed to give you a curve ball in the game of life.
Perhaps you should look at all of those memories from the viewpoint of self forgiveness, attempt to find reasons to forgive instead of judge.
I hate to preach but Jesus had that whole 'they know not what they do' thing going on and it worked pretty well for him. Resolved him of all his karma. The pain ended too. Albeit he died, in your case if you approach it with a new viewpoint, a new perspective, maybe you'll see the good that all of that unconsciousness has molded you, or me, to be. How we learned in the innocence of exploration, as many animals do, that gave us the experiences that led us to who we are today as self conscious beings.
It's unfair to judge the unconscious acts of humans, were we all born fully aware and not as infants perhaps it'd be fair. But we're not. We progressed from unthinking babies to curious children to rebellious teens to unaware young adults to...whatever oldness we are now that is self aware. You've been granted a whole life experiences of unconscious behavior as grist for the grind of simply discovering the infinite love in any of those moments, in discovering their..Sacredness. The Point to their existence. Their potential. There's a lot of sides to any of those moments though.
You can view it from the side of judgment, and see it as a painful memory.
Or you can view it from the side of forgiveness, and see it as a helpful memory of learned lessons.
Or you can view it from the side of love, and find that there is a magical reason for those moments of the past to benefit your future you in the present now.
Love knows no boundaries, it is the great astral connector. So try to remember there's more than one view or perspective to view anything that is bothering you in memory. Especially of such innocent moments as unconscious ones even if seemingly not innocent, the point is to forgive anyways, and find the love in the moment of those moments.
Anyway, I hope you don't mind my boldness, I might be completely wrong, I'm just trying to be helpful and remind you that searching for forgiveness and sacredness and love in those painful memories might reveal a whole new side to them. It might help release you from yourself too.
Sorry for sounding rude before too. I didn't mean to come off that way.