How's everybody doing?

[Aleksi]

The life I lived with the woman I had always dreamt of fell apart and I feel like I managed to open my heart chakra as a result. I guess she filled a role similar enough to my alcoholic father I haven't really met after my parents divorced and I was able to heal many old traumas that had left me hating and pitying myself and him. I guess not all of it has healed yet but I'm excited and surprised for I was so used to my old pain that I was unable to imagine how I could feel love properly without using chemical tools to bring it 4th (). Still, I'm gonna go drink alcohol today so I still have not transcended my escapist tendencies but the path I walk seems just a little bit brighter day by day.