Win/Losing and Lose/Winning

[Stranger]

Again more wisdom. I guess I'm just not ready to let go of this mode of being, which I feel to be so deeply a part of me. I find I simply cannot sit on the mountain and watch. Do wanderers not come here to affect change? How can you simply watch? Does no part of your being call you to fight or find elation in the battle? Do you not want to be a hero? Do you not want to look back on your life and laugh and laugh at the dynamic happenings?

These are questions which I often contemplate.

Mangus, I can only speak for myself; we all need to find our own direction and answers. I want to be happy. I want life to feel effortless and joyful. I am weary of the struggle; it bores and annoys me.

I think this has been the case for many throughout history. The Buddha wanted to be done with it, and many other teachers. They are simply offering a way out of being stuck in the endless wash cycle, for those who want it. I know I want it. I'm sure it's not for everyone.

Of course I do recognize the grief around me, and want to do my part to alleviate it. I've found, however, that I am most effective at this - and at everything I attempt, actually - the more I am able to remain in the Love-space and out of the conflict-space. And today I've understood why - if Win/Lose = Lose/Win, choosing to remain in that game is simply busywork. Love is what heals, so that's the road I'm choosing to take, against the (very strenuous!) objections of the incomprehending ego, to which it feels like if I'm not winning, then I must be losing. But I know better.