Can't trust or like anyone anymore!

[Ankh]

Yeah.. I'm pretty risky. But that torture and jail thing made me very paranoid for a while. one of the causes for my schizophrenia probably. but now I'm fearless because of faith and loving kindness that I've been working on. not completely fearless though. I get worried about my friend a lot and prey for her protection.


There's a guy who is a channel, he wrote a book similar to Law of One but with reference to Islam and Sufism. He's in jail now and has committed suicide twice without success. doesn't eat to protest. his name is Mohammad Taheri. his book mostly focuses on healing. they'll probably execute him, or let him rot in prison.

A few years ago government agents came for me and told me they have my pictures and info and suspect me to be a satanist. then hey asked me if I am a satanist or not and I said no.
I still speak up against the evil that's going on here in my poems which I've put in my blog. but no one sees my blog so it's just for me.

And about opening my heart, you're right, it's a lot harder in a medieval society.. but I'm trying my best. and my friend has been a great help for seven years.

OMG... Dude, if someone looks up in the intergalactic encyclopedia "Definition, Wanderer: foolhardy and brave", they will see your face there, and all the aliens will take off their hats for you. You and many with you with similar incarnations, are truly brave and foolhardy. My hat goes off for you, my brother.

Good luck with your extremely difficult incarnation and your mission! Of course, you have difficulties with other selves in the society you live! And you don't have to worry about "spreading your negativity" as you put it. This is completely understandable!

I am sending you lots of love, light and strength!