Putting the Puzzle Together - The Bigger Picture

[Foha]

Desynched, thanks for the input. This information is very difficult to parse and digest because it's so grandiose in scale. This is why a well-integrated knowledge of the Law of One Material is necessary. It is also necessary for a person to have moved somewhat through the process of opening the lower 3 energy centers and initiating the spirit complex before they are able to deal with information like this. If one hasn't made the Choice in that amount, they're not ready for this.

The purpose of fear mongering is to disempower someone which needs to be controlled (due to fear). It's not fear mongering if we have a perspective which shows something closer to the whole picture, hence name of thread. If we have the key already, then we can balance the weight of this heavy truth.

Thanks for the reply!

I was thinking about potentially private messaging you about some personal experiences I've had, but I decided I will share with the public some of the strife I've had in my life in hopes that it helps others in some way.

I have had paranormal experiences when I was a teen (around age 13-18).

Most of these were experienced alone, but some were experienced with many others nearby. These were explained away with "mass hysteria".

I think this is a long story, but I will shorten it to a nut-shell... TL;DR If you would rather not read it, please skim to the bold text.

One night I decided I would attempt an experiment with free will. I decided to do something that I would never do, even if you paid me a large sum of money to see what would happen, and test the edges of my free will.
So I thought long and hard about something you couldn't get me to do even if you paid me millions of dollars, and I decided I could do it for free.
I decided I would do something extremely embarrassing in front of my parents, and cause them to question my sanity.

I did this for two reasons:
1) I would rather be caught dead than be caught doing something (embarrasing)
2) I had a deep fear of being assumed to be crazy when I'm not.

I decided I could do both of these things in one act, and see what would happen. Worst case scenario, I explain myself, and I am simply embarrassed for a few weeks.

So I give this a shot.

My body refuses to act what I will it to. It is surreal. I cannot get my body to move in the way that I decide to pertaining to these goals, yet I am clearly decided on what I want to do.
Very surreal and strange.

Eventually, with sheer willpower, I am able to do the act, but in doing so, "high strangeness" starts to occur.
The television show or media playing on the tv in the living room nearby is delivering dialog by the actors in high synchronicity. I remember the dialog being similar to:
woman: "But what will they think of me?"
man: "You'll never find out until you try."

etc...
When I did the deed and was embarrassed, time seemed to stop. I remember feeling like I could sense wants and desires manifesting events in the real world like gravity attracts physical objects.
With this, I remember being able to finish my parent's sentences before they were done speaking.
They were concerned but completely perplexed. What were "you doing"? I'd finish.
Then I eventually plucked an idea out of the air and they were saying "Why don't.."
and I finished with "I'll just go to bed early."

In my room time seemed to be halted. I remember time being stuck. I remember it being around 9 pm and it would not budge. I paced the room, thought about many events in my past, reflected deeply on things, but my alarm clock stayed glued at the original time, even after what felt like hours.
It wasn't until I decided to visit my parent's room when time seemed to move forward. I tried asking them what was going on... How I could go to sleep from the racing thoughts, etc. Everytime I tried to speak to them, they got drowsy and fell asleep mid-conversation.

My mother agreed to listen to what I had to say if I agreed to go to be seen by a doctor. I agreed.

They ran tests on me, and couldn't find anything in my system except Belladonna, a muscle relaxant. I used to take it to relieve abdominal pains, but I hadn't taken it in months. They said this wasn't possible, as it was in my blood.

I didn't take any Belladonna, and I told them my body probably started to produce it on its own. This they chuckled at.

I was taken to a mental ward, and stayed only for 24 hours. They decided whatever was wrong with me was mild and I quickly got over it. They diagnosed me with Bipolar disorder.

As of today, I have been diagnosed with schizo-effective disorder. I am high functioning. I take medication every morning, and you would never guess I have a mental disorder.

There are conflicting beliefs in me about what happened.
My paranormal experiences, which I haven't shared yet, were explained away by my diagnosis. The experiences others were there for as well were explained away with mass hysteria.
I never got closure to these events, or what I feel has a deeper meaning behind.

I have a conflicting belief that what I experienced was experienced for deeper reasons, and of my own volition. That my diagnosis was agreed upon by myself and the world for convenience, and a limitation i don't mind having to make sense of things. I am aware that this is silly, and possibly wrong, but it is never-the-less something I still hold within me and never got closure with. I am seeing a therapist weekly and we talk about things like this...


In any case, because of my diagnosis, etc, I am very skeptical when it comes to things like this. I do this for not just my own protection, but my family's. I have cost them enough by needing to visit mental wards more than a few times. While I believe that my visits were not simply mental, but also spiritual, I accept that the world does not wish to hear that side of things. Unfortunately, I am expected to bottle them up and just accept that I am "crazy" and have to take pills for my "dysfunction".

In any case, I am open to the possibility this stuff could be real. However, I believe it is possible with a very small chance. Furthermore, even if it is real, I don't see much in a way of plan to combat it, or a good reason to. Say what you will about being used, etc, but at least I am content with my lot in life. If I am to be trampled on, then I will happily let karma fall where it will.

In any case, if you'd like me to elaborate on anything, please let me know. Thanks for reading