Hey guys,
Thank you for another great episode!
I guess that in the end it is about the will of seeking the Creator within vs distortions of free will beating up the illusion-bound incarnate self. And as one moves on with the light of awareness and gaining more and more knowledge of the self, accepting the self, hopefully the will of seeking the will of the Creator within gains more and more ground within the self. That is the true and only battle I believe. The battle of those wills within the self.
I never was a person who could control myself with iron will. My ex-husband could though. If he set his mind on something, no matter what he felt inside, he could carry it through. And though I admired that trait within him, wondering how he could do these things and just through iron will disregard inner discomfort, I knew that *I* was not like that. One of the greatest things given by Ra (through Don, Carla and Jim) is what to do instead of *controlling* the self with force. As it was mentioned in this show, it is not part of our society to show compassion and understanding for the self when it comes to negative aspects of the self. Instead we are expected to control these traits with force. I never resonated with that and knew that I could not do this after I tried it. I felt that the "result" by using this force, i.e. a more desired or "better" behavior perhaps, was not worth it. I felt like I raped myself when doing this. But now we know what to do instead and how to go about it, when we want to manifest a more desired attitude.
Thank you for another great episode!
I guess that in the end it is about the will of seeking the Creator within vs distortions of free will beating up the illusion-bound incarnate self. And as one moves on with the light of awareness and gaining more and more knowledge of the self, accepting the self, hopefully the will of seeking the will of the Creator within gains more and more ground within the self. That is the true and only battle I believe. The battle of those wills within the self.
I never was a person who could control myself with iron will. My ex-husband could though. If he set his mind on something, no matter what he felt inside, he could carry it through. And though I admired that trait within him, wondering how he could do these things and just through iron will disregard inner discomfort, I knew that *I* was not like that. One of the greatest things given by Ra (through Don, Carla and Jim) is what to do instead of *controlling* the self with force. As it was mentioned in this show, it is not part of our society to show compassion and understanding for the self when it comes to negative aspects of the self. Instead we are expected to control these traits with force. I never resonated with that and knew that I could not do this after I tried it. I felt that the "result" by using this force, i.e. a more desired or "better" behavior perhaps, was not worth it. I felt like I raped myself when doing this. But now we know what to do instead and how to go about it, when we want to manifest a more desired attitude.
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