What is it with me?

[MangusKhan]

I think that if you spread your energy out more, into more foci, then you would have more opportunities to connect with others. At present, you seem to have an intense and narrow focus on something which very few people can relate to, and which offers very little potential for polarised work within this world of human beings. You don't have to give up the anthro, but it seems like you do have to respect the human form in which you've chosen to incarnate.

My worry with you is that the love of furries is accompanied by a subtle rejection of human beings, your self included. I find it difficult to believe that pre-incarnation your desire was to share furrydom with this world, or to become an "anthro shaman". More likely, you wanted to share love with this world, and become an adept through this pure sharing. Somewhere along the line you have confused sharing love, with sharing the forms and concepts which you associate with love. That is to say, you now propagate furrydom instead of propagating love. Most people in this world will love you if you love them, but they will likely not love you if you impose distorted energy on them, which is essentially what you do when you propagate furrydom instead of propagating love. The great love within the furrydom is very apparent to me, but distortion is the key word here. Furrydom is not the universal love, it is a distortion and cannot replace it. Indeed, it is impossible to interact in this world without distortion. This post contains distortion as do all others in the thread, but that's part of life here. The key is discerning which distortions are useful and will yield reactions in consciousness when applied to others.

It is always somewhat a guessing game, but I'm confident to say that your particular distortion is one which is hindering your potential for service, as it simply does not serve the grand majority of people. The creator only wants to give others what they want. The creator is infinitely adaptable. To have an intense focus as you do is to distort the light of the creator, and disable your ability to give to others what they want and what they need, as you would if you embodied the creator more truly. The people of this world need love and they need wisdom, but you give them furries. The people of this world love to be understood and their feelings accommodated, but you only have a spare room for fantastical anthropomorphic beings.

A potential for great work in your life that I see, is in connecting more fully with the "real world" and the human beings in it. You will find many people within the furrydom who are in need of undistorted love and wisdom, who feel alienated from this world, and I'm sure they will listen to a fellow furry far more readily than they would listen to a plain old human. In this case, your distortions become an asset rather than a hindrance. That's very powerful, to realise that your distortions are there for a reason, and that they are actually affording you possibilities for service which you wouldn't have otherwise. Working with these distortions is often a way to heal them, because then they are blessed distortions, and therefore distortions no more in the sense of blocking your light. Now they simply flavour the light in a way that certain people will prefer. These are your people, should you accept the responsibility of being a beacon for them. Consider that.

I wish you well and ask that you disregard any part of this post that you feel has not hit the mark.